day 3-4

forgot to post yesterday. had an anger filled day. began with work and such and ended with a beautiful concert by Ingrid Michaelson at the count basie theater. food:

breakfast

lunch

dinner a la red bank diner, sans hash browns.

today was pretty good. worked, again. i feel like work is helping me get through my first week, however i find ive been eating a LOT of cashews. so im going to try to cut that down, it's unnecessary. head ache right now, but before then i was pretty full of energy today. lots of sleep. good food.
my sister's birthday party was today (her birthday isn't until october? i dont know) and there was cake and chips and cheese and chocolate to dip fruit in. i had almond butter instead.. at least i was good!

breakfast! got milk? (nope)

lunch

almond butter amongst the massive amazing looking cake.

i know it wouldn't be worth it anyway.

not pictured: mango & cashews snacked on at work (need to stop doing that) and 800 cups of tea.

knee still hurts. :(

really worried about needing a steroid shot in 3 weeks... eek.

sleep is pretty good, tired and it's 10:21p right now, so yay.

night.

day two, in the bank.

today was easier.

and by easier i mean i worked ALL DAY and had food cooked and at the ready when i was hungry. yes, prep!

mood was only slightly better than yesterday. a little more upset than yesterday's RAGE. all having nothing to do with diet and more with life circumstances.

slept sort of okay but for a long time, i'd say 9 hours.

knee was throbbing all morning, but went away later in the day.

working all day again tomorrow. my day might look identical to today. which is okay.

cheers.

breakfast

thumbs up

breakfast.

tea x 800000

lunch.

snacked on cashews and ate a chicken leg (1) when i got home. very much not hungry.

yoga tomorrow at 8 am

&

goodnight.

true confessions of a whole30 failure.

so here I am. take 729 on my quest to complete a whole30. i always say i will complete this. and i never do. i constantly fill my head with 'im a 20-something, i shouldn't have to be this strict' 'im busy' 'musicians dont have to be as picky as i am'. all this bull shit i need to snap myself out of before i let myself get out of control. cookie addiction is a serious problem in america today, folks..
but all kidding aside. i have real issues i am ready to undertake.
i am severely depressed. i am. it's a fact. i'm a year out of college, living at home trying to make it as a musician. i've already accepted this fate. i just want to be a little happier.
my sleep is awful.
i have allergies, still.
i am positive there is something severely wrong with my gut.
i am tired all the time. all. the. time.
all my family eats is pasta/snacks/bagels. (again, i live at home)
i live on cookies.

i am just at wits end with feeling this way because (way back when) i ate paleo very consistently and had never felt better in my whole life. i got caught up in the science of it and tried to 'perfect it' (zone, warrior, and any other "paleo versioned diet" you can name) - my body freaked out, my anorexic tendencies came back (flash back to high school cross country and an 86#, 5' tall samantha) and now here i am, uncomfortable in body and mind. ready and ready and READY to change.
i am going to a whole9 seminar in Hoboken with my best friend on Sept 9th --- so i'm determined to complete this challenge.

day 1. which couldn't have gone worse.

woke up late.
late to work.
got in trouble.
busy as hell.
tired.

brought food with me. made hard boiled eggs and had cucumber and a pepper.

tried pecan-butter today. i'll stick to my almond butter.

made lamb chops/sautéed mushrooms for dinner.

beyond super stressed out.
kinda mad at myself.

right now i am in a terrible mood about life and respect and self worth. i am tired and cranky. and i want to be 100% honest because this is where i'm documenting my journey. today was awful. but it's only up from here..

**also. i am injured. my knee is injured (the tendons were swollen from hurting my knee and they're on the road to recovery) -- want to throw that out there. working out is super limited for me right now.

black Americano. go team USA.

hard boiled eggs, cucumber, pepper

lamb chops (grass-fed), mushrooms and onion. (sauteed in olive oil)

not photo'd: almond butter, lara bar (discarding these from my life as of today -- would much rather eat an apple), cashews (can you tell I went shopping and was eating in line?)

lots of fat today. was slightly less prepared than I wanted to be. but tomorrow is another day. and I ate whole30 approved. so yay, day 1.

goodnight.

holy humidity

sleep: 7 hours (very unrestful sleep last two nights)

"greatness lies not in being strong, but in the right use of strength"

henry ward beecher

warm up:
EMOM for 5 minutes
burpees x 5

mobility:
scorpion stretch
arm stretch
foam roll
pass throughs

strength: 
floor press 5-3-1 (75%-85%-95%)

(warm up) 45x10
(working sets) 65x5, 75x3, 85x1xf

wod:
3 rounds
5 front squats @ 80#
18 pull ups @ red band
5 dead lifts @ 115#
18 knees to elbow
5 push press @ 80#
18 push ups (hand release)

27:22 ------- holy ouch. this took way too long. pull ups failed (went to a band) - grip failed. wasn't feeling very strong today

Cindy, you bitch.

Day 1 -- yes, I am starting today and not yesterday but I'm going to keep myself honest to this so today is day 1.

Weight: 137.8 #
Sleep: 10 hours (!) (it's my day off... haha)

Warm Up: 3 Rounds NFT
300m run
Bear crawl
Sansom stretch

Strength: Power Cleans 5-3-1+ (75%-85%-95%)

Burgener warm up (with PVC)
warm up | 45x8, 65x6
working sets | 85x5, 95x3, 105x10

WOD: (AMRAP 15 minutes of...) "Cindy"
5 pull ups
10 push ups
15 squats

9 Rounds + 4 pull ups

spring has sprung!

March 20, 2012 (first day of spring!)

warm up:

crossfit shrewsbury loop

10 overhead squats @ pvc

10 lunges

strength: thrusters 3-3-3-3-3

warm up: 45x8, 65x6

working sets: 95x3x3x3x3x3

wod: 10 minutes of "cindy"

5 pull ups (kip)

10 push ups (hand release)

15 squats

6 rounds + 4 pull ups

twofer

March 17, 2012

strength: deadlift 3-3-3 (70%-80%-90%)

warm up: 45x10, 95x5, 115x5

working sets: 130x3, 150x3, 165x8

March 19, 2012

warm up:

crossfit shrewsbury loop ;)

duck walks

wall walks (vertical)

10 push ups

10 squats

10 sit ups

strength: back squat 5-3-1+ (75%-85%-95%)

warm up: 45x10, 95x8, 115x3

working sets: 135x5, 155x3, 170x2

wod: amrap 6 minutes

10 kettlebell swings @ 16kg

10 burpees

4 rounds + 6 burpees

wod 2.0 : death by 10 meters

got to round 10